But the past few weeks, meetings have been uniformly focused and worshipful. I've been blessed to consistently find myself in a deep, luxurious and prayerful state. I've been profoundly moved by the vocal ministry, but not necessarily by the things that are said. I've truly felt where the words are coming from. I was startled this morning to hear the booming voice of God thundering from the throat of a woman who stood to talk about the prophet Jeremiah. She herself became a prophetess in that moment. Her voice was like a bullhorn.
This morning, I realized what the difference was. The past few weeks, I've begun meeting for worship with prayer. I simply speak to God, feeling him out, opening up to him with words. I ask him explicitly to come bless us with his presence. I ask him to come and sit among us, and I picture the meeting room covered with Spirit. I don't really know how to describe this, but I see it covered over with something that looks like swirling water. It's gentle, luminous, and clear. I don't say "Amen" or anything like that to end the prayer; instead of ending it, I allow it to feather out and diffuse. When I begin with prayer, meetings for worship have been profoundly sweet.
Is that all it takes? All I have to do is ask? I don't need any tricks and techniques to enter a prayerful state, but only an open invitation, asking God to come and be present?